saturday!

i have to register today for university year 2, im not sure i want to lol...but i will....i am just not sure i want to do this for the rest of my life, i guess i just need to go through the motions for now. It might be feeling this because i am a bit nervous about the new placement, i really do not like starting in new placements at all, they really unbalance me for a week or two!. i really worry about what they will think when they see big fat me walking towards them :( but hey that wont be forever because i am GOING TO SUCCEED and be slim!

Well then after registration im going over to a mates for lunch with another mate, so i am a bit worried about the food i will be offered, but i am taking my son as a backup, if i dont want it he will back me up on it. I feel really focused at the moment on weight watchers i mean really in the zone!, i cant wait until monday i want to see how much i have lost, haha hopefully i have lost some, i know my motivation will snowball if i have it will be awesome! if i havent then i will have to recheck my points and recheck i am doing it right but one thing i am planning on not doing is giving up.

i start at the gym next week, wednesday at 9pm i have the routine sorted out for me, then away i go, my other son has also joined and hopefully together we can spur each other on to do this, i know he will nag me to go and i will nag him as well. Because hes only 14 he can only go at certain times of the day so it might be a bit limiting at times for us both, but also fun ...i cant wait! i have also challenged him to some wii fit challenges too, which i think will be fun and as we both get fitter hopefully can do some running on the wii fit together as well, right now he would win no question about it hahaha. I think also the walking at placement will help, i found my pedometer the other day so i am going to wear that when i am on shift on thew ward and see how far i actually walk in a day. hopefully notch up some bonus points there!

one last thing i wanted to mention or jot down should i say, is last night i felt really proud of myself, i had dinner about 4.30 way too early really, but lasted into the night with butter nut squash and suger free jelly, what a godsend they are, also have a ww rice pudding thing with jelly which was very yummy and actually very filling, i can belive how much better i am eating on ww, i hardly ever feel hungry, the kids get good balanced meals, i get more oganised, things just get better for us all, the house seems to get tidier i guess because i have more energy, i have the need to get up and do things now instead of sitting down, my skin also gets clear because of all the water. I just hope i can keep these good thoughts and use them when i am struggling because being on ww really does improve my whole life!

ok siging off for now, but i think i will make that a morning mantra "weight watchers really improves my whole life" yay go me!